Today has been SHIT! I wish everything was back to the way it was. I never handle things very welll. ;c I don’t know what the fuck to do.

I miss everything we did together. I miss our talks, our walks, and the days where we just laid around listening to music. I miss how much fun we had together. I miss kicking ass in video games and not getting yelled at, and I miss the smile he put on my face. Oddly enough, i miss EVERYTHING.

But you can only have one guy. I think I should do what my mother told me to. I really just need time to be alone. and Do some pros and cons, till i figure out what I truly want. 

A negative thing about all of this, is that I have no one to talk to. I’ve lost practically all of my friends, and the few I have don’t understand how I feel. I just need someone. Anyone.

my sister seems to think i should ditch my boyfriend and to back to my ex! but my mother thinkks i should stay with who i have. no matter what i do, i displease someone. i really need to start thinking about myself. i seriously need a two week vacation or something! sometimes, you just need to be alone. too bad it’s impossible for me to do that.

i guess i’ll just wait everything out. see what happens.

I can’t stop thinking about my ex. 

And when I think about him too much, i start to feel overwhelmed, and sick.

;c My mother tells me that i’m being ‘wishy-washy’!

I’d just like to think i’m confused & don’t know what I want.

My current boyfriend has some great qualities, but my ex treated me 138424138512103695x better.  

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